* I dont believe that ANYBODY feels the way I do about YOU now *wink* lol

Today is gonna be the day
That they’re gonna throw it back to you
By now you should’ve somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don’t believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I’m sure you’ve heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don’t believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don’t know how

Because maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You’re my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they’ll never throw it back to you
By now you should’ve somehow
Realized what you’re not to do
I don’t believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don’t know how

I said maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You’re my wonderwall

I said maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You’re my wonderwall

Said maybe
You’re gonna be the one that saves me
You’re gonna be the one that saves me
You’re gonna be the one that saves me

-Emotions..emotions…emotions..this song has played an important role in many parts and stages of my life-

This reminds me of a post a few months ago about wanting a dog very badly..right after watching “Marley and Me”. And finally…yes, FINALLY, I got myself a cute lil pup. His name is Poncho..as you know ‘A poncho is a garment designed to keep the body warm, or if made from a watertight material, to keep dry during rain’. I feel that this is perfectly suited for him as this lil one will be with me through thick n thin.

He is just 7 weeks old..light brown, adorable eyes and round lil body that makes you wanna just cuddle him. When I went to see these pups, I was a little nervous, not knowing which dog to pick. Becca told me that its not me that will pick the right dog…but the dog will apparently pick me and true enough this one just followed me about everywhere I went..bitting and pulling my jeans. Heheheh. ADORABLE.

After bringing him back..I started freaking out..after realizing that it’s not really gonna be easy. It was a few days of sleepless nights as he cried pitifully so much so that I almost started crying too. lol. And then the poop and pee cleaning moments..sigh..Im glad to say that Im getting used to it. It’s fun just playing with him and having a lil brown thing follow u around..oh..priceless.

Took him to the vet on Monday, and he apparently has some skin disease. In other words..he has Scabies..which is pretty freaky as it obviously can transmit to humans but the vet said he’ll be fine after 3 weeks of shots and medication. He got dewormed too and will be vaccinated soon enough.

I just kissed him good night and wrapped him in a warm towel. Hehhehe..I forsee much happy moments and good times with Poncho around..Bliss!

I am a dreamer

I am a believer of destiny and karma

I am a true Gemini

I am the type of girl that laughs at random things that happened yesterday

I am the type of girl that goes estatic when I’m in a tunnel

I am the type of girl that hates cucumbers..(heheheh)

I am the type of girl that cries after watching a love story

I am the type of girl that is very much passionate about friendship

I am the type of girl that envelopes life with friends

I am a believer of God’s plan

I am a God-fearing person that is not afraid to live life

I am the type of girl that plays the events of the day in my mind before I sleep

I am the type of girl that thinks about you and smiles

I am the type of girl that would rather be still than to do anything about something in my heart

I am the type of girl that puts on a mask and tries to make you smile

I am the type of girl that has strong emotions for you

I am the type of girl that believes in herself

I am the type of girl that questions almost everything

I am the type of girl that knows that this is all a dream.

I am ME..the girl I look at each day in the mirror..as my mind starts to wonder!

-Bev-

Feeling all knotted up..I want a vacation by the beach. Somehow the beach makes me totally calm..everytime I face an issue..I head to the beach. Its like a serene moment when the wind blows thru my hair, while I watch the sunset and hear the waves. It somehow allows me to leave a lot of things behind as I head home. It somehow gives me answers on what I need to do. It somehow makes me a lil more positive and happy! I want the beach!

Since Im on a 7 week break, I plan to do this. To rejuvenate myself..hehehe! I need it..I badly need it. I need some answers..I need to sit by the beach and pray for an answer..apparently that always helps. I’ll never forget my trip to PD about 4 years ago..when I so needed to get a hold of myself. My aunty took me there and that was the much needed break. I remember one night walking by the beach..all dark..the wind blowing thru my hair..trying to erase my memory on a few things. The water was cool and nice..and then I decided to pray..Thanking god for the marvellous view and praying for guidance to help me erase a few things. That was a point of my life when things were pretty crappy and I was on the edge. After the lil pray, I decided to sit still and listen to the waves..seconds later…God decided to answer my prayers. A very special person decided to call and check on me..and told me that everything was gonna be ok. He apparently had the sudden urge to speak to me. That night as I lay my head to sleep, i reliazed that there’s so much more to life..and knowing that I will go back one day to that very beach to seek more answers.

True enough, 4 years later, here I am..at a good point in my life..yet needing answers to be revealed to me. Wondering if this is what was chosen for me..wondering if I am making the right move..wondering if you will be a part of my story. So yeah..its time to head back to a beach to help me get through this..coz apparently, this is deep.

*and YES..tunnels still RULE*
heheheheh

Well, Ive been having a good weekend plus the holidays and all. I really need to start studying tho, its the Finals..for this Semester, at least. I love sleeping…yeah, I know..I have to say this la..lol. And, there’s been a tonnes of things on my mind lately too..so yeah, not really a good combination with studying and exams and what-not.
Things have been a lil weird..and..yeah..I cant really say much..so yeah! I dont know if the yellow light at the traffic light means that I should STOP or I should allow myself to go. Well, things like this shouldnt be wondered about…so yeah.
I really want to go for Beyonce’s concert, but apparently being broke has become a norm for me..lol. So, this means I need to work a bit harder and save some extra cash. Im glad that the holidays are almost here, and a few things have been planned up. A nice long trip to Cameron Highlands which will be filled with relaxing, drinking and enjoying the scenery. And a fun-filled day at Gentings…which Im excited about! The holidays have been my only motivation to study..lol.

I think I’m facing some major issues here…I cant seem to understand what’s up..I think I have once again got myself into some drama…yeah..bad, I know…real bad. Oh, and somehow I’m finding it really hard to fall asleep nowadays..haih, I need the rest la..coz my finals are soon and without the sleep..I’m just gonna be the grumpy b**** which I hate to be. So yeah, hopefully sleep will come easy..tho it’s imposibble.
I think I’m ready to plan my next vacation…I need to clear my head, I need to cleanse my system…I need to flush things out. Sigh..vacation, vacation, vacation…Since my holidays are very very soon…I’m planning to go of for a bit..hopefully to a beach of some sort…beaches help me regain my composure.
There’s many things I want to vent out..but I can’t..so I shall just stop here with a big smile on my face >>>>>>

I’m a train wreck in the morning
I’m a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I’m a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren’t even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day

I don’t know why you love me
And that’s why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that’s why I love you
And that’s why I love you
And that’s why I love

I neglect you when I’m working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I’m a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I’m a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I’m a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that’s exactly what I need

I don’t know why you love me
And that’s why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that’s why I love you
And that’s why I love you
And that’s why I love you

Don’t know why you love me
And that’s why I love you
Catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that’s why I love you
And that’s why I love you
And that’s why I love you
You, you, you

*smiles*

I don’t know but
I think i maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe i should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til i
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But i want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So i’m hiding what i’m feeling
But i’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think i’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now i found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think i’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As i’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But i want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So i’m hiding what i’m feeling
But i’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think i’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now i found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think i’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh i just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think i’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now i found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think i’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
I think i’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now i just can’t hide it
I think i’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh i’m fallin’ for you

* I really like this song…as It never fails to leave a smile on my face..oh, the video clip is super cute too..lol*

Woohoo! Thomas and Jacky tied the knot..life finallyyyyyyyy! And it was a damn beautiful ceremony. Mass was awesome and the dinner was very unique and creative. Jacky looked stunning in her specially designed dress, it was gorgeous. Thomas looked very handsome too. Thambi boy looked nice la, all suited up and all that. I wore a black dress for mass with a purple shawl, Becca wore a black n red dress..Both looked nice! heheheh!
Mass started well, with the band ( Aug, Stanley, Domarcas n Glendan) rocking it and Fr. George, Fr. Michael Raymond and Fr. Albert served Mass…the best moment was the exchanging of vows. The whole crowd was pretty much touched when both the bride and groom were in tears..it was beautiful la k..! We all couldnt help but feel very..i dunno..mixed emotions, I guess…it was a real nice feeling watching two beautiful people proclaim their love to each other…very very nice!
Dinner was unique as I said, there were little bells that were given out to be rung when the bride n groom walks in..the lil notes were nicely written and the wine glasses was also a gift for the guest. The bride and groom didnt walk in..but danced their way in..so typical of them. And then Jacky sang a song to her husband…aww..nice nice! The videos were the best..real cute! All in all, amazing wedding, I had loads of fun..I thought I looked nice, getting dressed up and all that…hehehe… After the wedding we went out and got back late..to celebrate the union of Thomas n Jacky..lol!

PS: I do wonder if I’ll go thru all that in life…*smiles* It’s a nice feeling…a real nice feeling!

Once again, Congrats to Thomas and Jacky…as you both begin your life stories and grow old together!!!

What a day! Phewww! Tired like hell, but still came online to blog and check my FB. Well, Becca. Charissa and me went dress hunting today…That lucky child Becca got a gud deal on a few dresses and a top…While me and Charissa…haih! We walked and walked and walked….oh, and walked! My feet is killing me! Tomorrow’s another dreadful Monday! I have to drag myself to work and then happily drive to Uni to settle some drama I got myself into. Dunno how Im gonna drive thru the jammed up Federal Highway,..but yeah..I have to. So, the story is that I need a dress..two actually…for Thomas wedding and I have to keep looking for the ‘Tra-la-la’ dress that I kinda like. I’ve always wanted one of those..and today after trying a few on…I like it even more! So here’s to dress-hunting! May we find the dress of our dreams! heheheh! cliche.