Questions keep clouding my mind. Every time! I always wonder if I’ll ever learn to be contented! If I’ll ever learn to live life how I made it to be. How I chose certain things…I wonder if I’m at peace with myself.

  God has blest me abundantly. He helps me thru days I feel like a failure, He helps me thru days I feel alone, He helps me wipe those silent tears, He helps me live each day with a smile on my face, eventhough my heart’s not at ease.

  Everyday, I wake up and decide what mask to put on. Should I finally give in to those feelings? Or should I just keep pushing it aside? God has a funny way of teaching me things, and all that has made me ME. I wonder if I’m even thought about, I live thru the day knowing that I am loved. Sometimes feeling totally invisible, sometimes feeling exposed. I do hope you end up hating me for all this. I do hope you understand who I am and what I’ve become. I hope that you stop judging me and take the time to ask me if I’m alright, because for now, I don’t quite seem to know what’s wrong.

  I keep praying for you, before I sleep, you’re all I think about, when I wake up, you’re all I think about. Wondering and hoping that the new day will bring a new hope. Well, God made all this happen, I do have faith that He will not just take it away from me. Remember, I think about you, even when it seems that I don’t care! Life is too short to be this way.