I can’t believe that it has been 3 years already. Miss you Aaron Adam. I’ll never forget this date or your charming smile. All I know is that you’re in a happy place but I miss you loads. You’ll always be close to my heart and I’ll never ever forget the person that you were. The warmth and the love that you had for those around you. Keep looking down on me, my angel. Love you.

 

  You know how sometimes you want something so badly in life, but it turns out a mess or a whole different thing? You know how you wish for something so much, but then it just crumbles on you……..WELL, God has a reason for all of it. Each time we falter in life, we kinda blame the Man above. We blame HIM when things go wrong, we blame Him for unhappiness, heck, we even blame him for small petty things. But what if, we choose to take the whole drama and turn it into blessings? What if we choose to accept the failures, and make it a stepping stone to be better people…The thing is…We are humans, and its hard to accept  when things don’t go our way.

  He only puts things in our lives that we CAN handle. Believe me..its hard to say,..but that’s very true. Sometimes it rips your heart out when you see someone walk away or when you have to let go of a dream. But that only happens when God decides you deserve better. I was once talking to a friend about relationships and I couldn’t help thinking how we often say that we will never fall in love again..or that we will never have the same person again…but we choose to leave out the fact that better days are yet to come. We are created for a purpose, and until and unless we find our purpose, God will keep working in our lives. We may think we want something so badly, but somehow something good always comes out from every heartache. I had to let go of many dreams, many people in life..and at those moments, I kinda lost faith. But looking back, those things have created a big impact in life…it has changed me in many ways. And I’m blest for every failure, every heartache, every lost dream. This is because I do believe that God will never let me or you dwell ourselves in those heartaches, He will definitely pick us up and push us further in life till we reach for the stars. So, every time you feel that life is unfair, remember that God only gives you what He believes you can handle. He gives you relationships so that He knows that you will learn from it. He gives you heartaches because He knows that you deserve better and He will mould you to make you complete.

  Everytime we say we will never do something, do you actually realize that the next time something else happens, we stumble again..You know why? Coz you haven’t learnt enough..and the Best is yet to come. So trust In HIM..nobody else knows better. HE will provide, He will heal..He will lead the way to a happy heart. Believe me, my friend..the Best is yet to come.

*This is dedicated to the family that I’m so in love with…U better thank me for making u guys love this song..and yes, everytime u hear this song..think of me k..Muaks!!*

What’s wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I’m going crazy now

No more gas in the rig
Can’t even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can’t even speak about it
I’m a light on my head
Don’t want to think about it
Feels like I’m going insane
Yeah

It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It’s too close for comfort

Put on your green lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Faded pictures on the wall
It’s like they talkin’ to me
Disconnectin’ phone calls
The phone don’t even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It’s too close for comfort

It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster

Put on your green lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Release me from this curse
I’m trying to remain tame
But I’m struggling
You can’t go, go, go
I think I’m going to oh, oh, oh

Put on your green lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

    Who says we’re friends?? Heck no..we are FAMILY! This post is dedicated to the 7 bright stars in my life. Im sure u know who u are…It already feels like I’m in a relationship with 4 guys and 3 girls…heheheheh. But yes, I’m glad for each one of u. I thank God for the amazing bond that we share. I know that no matter how sick and tired we get of each other, we will still call and bug the hell out of each other. And for that, I’m blest to call you guys Family.

  Thank you for the moments of deep conversations, the times when I needed a shoulder to cry on….thank you for the times when you helped me thru the many dramas in life. Thanx for the amazing time on the dance floor. Thank you for the laughter and fun we share over booze..(hehehe), thank you for making me believe in myself. Thank you for deepening my faith in God and life. Thank you for being the family that I chose for myself. There are so many things that I thank you for…the past, present and future. I love ya guys to death. And I’m glad for these moments, I’m captivated by each one of you. So much so that my own family thinks I’m married to you guys. LOL.

   This is just something which I wanted to share with you guys, I have no words to describe how much I appreciate each one of you. Yes, I know this may seem very cliche…but It’s true. God has picked the best angels…(no wait..that’s too deep)..umm..He picked the best creatures…(heheheheh) and send them my way. And It’s good to have found u guys. U guys are so unique in ur own different ways. Well, there’s the very confused,adorable and filled-with-drama one, the same person that I can cry to and share almost everything with. The same person that is totally funny and weird in a good way-my darling. Then, there’s the dreamer, the one that looks like a stoner-but the same one that knows my deep dark secrets…the same one that wipes away my tears and reaches out to touch my heart all the time-my pillar. Third, is the one that I’ve known all my life..so much so I know how the person think almost all the time…The one person that I will never really show how much he/she means to me…but always has a very very special place in my life, the same one that has journeyed with me thru thick and thin-my evil/blur twin . Next, is the one who will always remain weird, funny,drama-filled and very entertaining, the person that always teams up with another weird one and puts a smile on my face almost everytime-my clown. And then, there’s the treasure which I just discovered recently. A person that has listened to my silent tears, my loudest laugh and my heart’s whispers. The same person that I know I’ll never trade for anything-my cute secret keeper. Next, is the darling of the group..the one that gets bullied the most, the one that is very good looking but doesnt realize it..the one that holds a special place in my heart, coz I’ve known this person for a very long time, but just got the oppurtunity to be close too. The same person that soothes me when I’m down,looks out for me and the same person whom I enjoy talking too-my knight. And finally, there’s the smart,very entertaining, funny, witty-smooth operator. The same person who helps me understand the person that I am, the other treasure which I recently found who fills my life with so much entertainment and love-my witty baby. Though we all have our moments and weaknesses…I still chose to love u all..lol.. We are so into each other that its a bit sick sometimes..heheheh.So yeah, need I say more….? Go figure!

  I love ya guys, without you, life will be totally dry..hehehe. I still completely enjoy all those sleepless nites, the wild parties, the late nite chats, the time of worship and prayer, the journey of our lives..I’ll never get tired of these moments…hell no! In case u guys are still too dumb to figure out who u all are…..well…shall I put down ur initials??? heheheheheheh. Once again, a big thank you to each one of you for making life so colourful, filled with drama (oh boy), love and loads of fun. God bless my sayangs!!

Much love and kisses,

-Bev-