Yes, I finally got it….I was supossed to blog about it way earlier..but I was just very caught up with things. I love it…It turned out so well, I will send u pics, Des. It was such an amazing experience. Well, you see, intially, I was gonna get it done from D*******y..but then the dude screwed up my design like totally..Thank god, some really good friends managed to calm me down..and find a better place to get it done..lol.

  Before getting it done..I informed my mum..and she was like…well, she told me to go ahead..but she didnt want to get anything wild..so I showed the design to her…and she approved of it..Neway, let me describe it a little…There is supossed to be a little more to it..designs I mean, but that will have to wait for awhile coz Im kinda broke..(yes..yes..I know). For now, I wont elaborate on that…I will just tell u how this one looks like. As u know, my previous tat was on my lower back..so i got this one to complete that..and its a tribal letter B..on my left..and a mirror image of that on the right. I felt it was appropriate coz as I am a gemini. All in all, I love it..cant wait for u to see it. Will show u the pics soon.

*This is a post I wrote ages ago…and I happen to stumble upon it recently..and I just wanted to add it in here*

 

  Sitting by my window, watching the beauty of nature as it trickles down from heaven. I was told as a little girl that when it rains, it means that God is opening up heaven to shower the earth with more blessings….The sound of the rain hitting my window creates a peaceful feeling as I slowly begin to feel at ease…inhaling the fresh and moist air around me…and exhaling all the stress n tension in me. As I slowly begin to relax, I feel every inch of my body at total surrender and motionless. The rain somehow has the ability to reach down deep into the core of my feelings and captivate my soul…only to fill it with peace.

   Unable to sit still, I quickly hurry down the stairs and out the front door. I didn’t have to worry about anybody watching me coz I was all alone at home and it was totally dark outside….hmmm…just me and the rain. I rush out to my garden, at first just drenching my hands…then I totally couldn’t resist the temptation to just get fully drenched. So there I was, feasting my soul with the one of the simplest source of nature. I just stood triumphantly letting everything go…all the tension, all the stress…everything. I was surprised at how good and magnificent it felt. I felt as if heaven was opening up to me…showering me with blessings. I looked up at the dark sky and smiled my widest smile, saying a silent prayer, thanking God for the moment….the moment which was dedicated totally to me. I let my hair loose; I was totally drenched now from head to toe. But I was extremely happy for the phenomenal experience of the rain. My heart danced with joy, my eyes shone bright…bright as a wild fire. My desires grew stronger; my soul was at ease…..finally…I sigh in relief.

     I played for quiet sometime in the rain…..enjoying every single second of it. I even discovered how pretty the sky looks when it rains. To get a better view of the splendid sky, I lay on my back….with the rain splattering down my face. You could call me crazy…but believe me…it was the most spectacular sight. I was truly mesmerized by how wonderful God created nature for us.

      The rain…..it filled me with contentment and opened up my mind to many more things in life. It taught me to have fun…to let go….to feel free. Through the rain, I gained a more peaceful self….and felt the power of letting go. The power of what lies deep within me….I managed to unleash the spirit which was slowly perishing and turned it into a wild fire. For many, the rain might just be bleak but to me….it was an amazing experience of self-discovery and a moment which I spent peacefully with God, nature and myself.

    I had a really good conversation with a few close friends the other day at our usual hang-out spot..yup, Steven’s corner. And I had one of the most amazing conversation which started out with a really interesting topic as well…RELATIONSHIPS. I seriously can’t remember what brought us to have that conversation, but….that was one eye-opener.

   It was a very fruitful conversation, as we, the girls, apparently got a lot of feedback from the guy…Samson..(yes, yes..the hero for the day). I HAVE to add that he is one intelligent dude la…..(tho I know he’s gonna be sooooooooo proud of this statement..*sigh*). He was telling us how to read expressions and simple human behaviours. And it was certainly good to know that very basic gestures actually scream out many different signs. And yes, that helped me it many ways. It suddenly accured to me how much I’ve been complaining about life recently, and the fact that I’ve never actually done anything to make it better, was an awakening.

    I’ve been saying that it’s hard to go through a lot of things lately….well, the fact still remains the same..Damn..it IS hard…but somehow, Samson kinda showed me that there are many ways to make things a whole lot better. It’s true that we can’t change things that happen in life, but we can change the way we think..and how we choose to handle situations. I think that that whole conversation made me think a whole lot more about being in control of what I feel. It is a struggle, coz as life goes on…I tend to dwell myself more and more into confusions, but somehow, it falls back on the way I handle each and every situation. I’m glad to say that the talk made me realize I am capable to handle these emotions. The deep dark thoughts that keep bugging me will soon be gone. And I’m happy to say that I tried out a few theories today…and….*drumroll*…it WORKED!!! (ps: Ecspecially the ‘flirting’ tips..lol!!)

   So, this goes out to darling Samson, for making me feel good about myself and opening up a whole world of possibilities which I choose to explore in my own time and space. It’s good to know once in a while that I have people around me that constantly give me a boost in life.

   I’ve never actually been bored during holidays..but oh god…this whole Merdeka Hols is so boring! The only good thing bout this hols was that I gotta catch up on all the lost sleep. And the fact that I gotta spend time with a few people who I have been wanting to hang out with. Other than that, my pay is out..and it’s such a disappointment, coz it’s not as much as I expected it to be…So, I guess I gotta put off my tat idea for a while..Damn…

  As you know, I’ve been dying to get one..but now, lokks like I gotta settle the important things first, then IF i have extra…I’m gonna head straight to Dragonfly ( that’s the tat shop) and get it done. I can’t wait for you to see it Dez..hehehe. I woke up and 11am today.. (smiles)..and went for lunch wt some frens…got back..and I’m sleepy..hehehe…Oh, did I mention that I love my job?? The job is nice, I mean, basically it’s about making calls and informing the customers about the promotions and so on..Besides that, my call floor is really nice. My boss totally rocks! The whole team are really friendly and superbly sporting with me and Becca. It’s all nice. And then there’s the office scandals ..hehehehe. Yup, I LOVE my job!!

   I’m trying to save some cash, coz I realize that I’ve been spending too much. I realized that I’m just blowing cash, and now, sigh…I NEED to save. So yeah, wish me luck. Will update u soon if I’m getting my tat or not.

*I’m gonna sleep now..lol*